whenever i sit down in front of my lappy pondering over things to write.i am not sure what i should be writing bout really.i am 25 and getting older.i am right in thewe epicenter of my quarter life crisis.ironically theres nothing that seems to worry me bout.well i should be worried bout a lot of things in life though.bout how to go about my life.when can i get a big job.big money.beautiful wife or whtever.support my family.theres a hell lot of things to worry bout when u come from a middle high class family.when u have the comforts of the world but its not enough for you to sit down and take life easy either.

i am sitting right now in a coffee shop and writing away to glory not worried i am skipping a classi paid for and losing an opportunity to get a leash on a better life in the long run.its quite a bit of an irony.we all do realise that if we do not work hard and smart now.we can only blame ourselves tomorrow for not having done enough.still we while away our time.do whtever comes to our minds.never give a bother what tomorrow might throw back at us.

we are all have a role to play in this world in this life.be it good be it bad.i cant imagine how this world might have been had it been perfect.the beauty of this life is the fact the we are so imperfect.the beauty lies in the fact tht we mess up easier then we can ever make up.it could take years and years to build up a dream but takes just a moments times to destroy it.

beauty of this life lies in the fact that nothing ever comes easy and if it does..then u are still missing something.life has a funny way to balance out things.

no matter what may come.i got no one to blame or credit besides myself.and i am happy to be so.untill the time i get there when i really need to drastic steps.i will sit here on the couch and write my heart away.wether anyonelikes it or not.reads it or not.coz this is whati wanna do right now.until i get better things to keep myself busy with....

one more day..many more confusions...!!

its a rainy out here.i came to the coffee shop as usual to waste somtime and see if i can put my tohught to a line and churn out some thoughts.when ever i do try to do so consciously it doesnt seem to happen ever. the radios playing some funny country song.the woman in the song keep on repeating jesus over and over each damn line.nothing against the guy.its just gets tiring to listen to the same name over and over. as it is i am not a christian or a religious guy in any sense.



everyones seems to have faith in this so called god.ask anyone what this god is all bout.some might just give you a blank look and another one might start off with a long story.some believe that god is in everything...now thats a funny thought.do you really think a god would like to stick on the sole of my shoes or anyone elses?

well maybe god is there only in select few things and not everything else.maybe someone needs to get facts right.some believe in idols and images of god,some believe god has no form.buts its there somewhere looking over us.

for gods sake....all this kind of sounds a bunch of fairy tale story to me.what an irony...i just used god myself.

well this is my definition of god.its something that makes you believe in the good things.something that makes you strive to be a better person.its something thats makes you stronger as a person.its something thats helps give meaning to your life.there is no god which has some major supernatural power to change thing as and when he will.what we are and will be is our decision to make.there is no god in the stone images or the big fat monuments u make in lords name.its all in our minds.when you say god, its not bout spending hours touching your head five times a day or folding your hands over and over or any other means.you dont get closer to god by spending money time and gifts to your lord.its quite simple.

but irony is very few seem to understand it.every one is so involved in pleasing their respective gods with such gusto.they forget what is the purpose of us living in the world.

some jack in a box goes to middle of the desert while some goes to top of mountain to give their offering in the hope that they will be granted what they wish for.sorry little creatures.thats what i feel for them.if everything came jusy by taking a trip,everyone would have been a millionaire or whatever they wish to be.
people can beg to differ.but what i mention here cannot be argues upon because thats the fact.god or no god...we still have to work our derriere off before we get anything.unles sofcourse ones taking the easy way out.
god is one thats what its said.but everyones seems to be interested in creating their own version of god.cant blame them for that can we? everyones got their own way to look at the world.good or bad.its always varied.
this is what we call as religion.each one having their own dang gods....
when their respective believes goes to levels of extremism.this is what we got that we have right now all across the globe.some claim they can talk to their respective lords and what not.and their lords have told them to do so and so....
ahhh!!come on....it only makes me laugh more than anything other emotions.some egghead claims to be the messenger of the lord up above.some claim to be the rebirth of some jack in a box lord.gawd..and here are people to believe in it and do unmentionable deeds to get to heaven or get redemption.
for certain bunch of people religion is all that matters.whatever their lord tells them(through their messengers) they are willing to do.anything at all.
i kind of sound racist or whtever u put it like.but why do most of us forget we are humans first.
why do we forget we built religion.no lord told us do so.if there is anything that religion is there for.then it is to make us better human beings.not to kill,maim,abuse,humanity.humanity is everyones religion and the first and foremost.
i dont know how i could put this message across to anyone at all.atleast i believe if each one can keep this in our thick heads we could make this world a better place to live and die for.
and if it doesnt get thru our thick heads.lets hope someone can pursue a Holy War.
for Peace.
for Integrity.
for Humanity.
We make war so we can have peace.
you decide whose side do you want to be...!!!

everyone to have lived has a story to tell.
what matters is how we put across.
from a street hawker to wall street executive has a story to tell
bout themselves.i got one too.
and its quite uninteresting.
only person to have agreed its great is myself.
there is this one person who likes to hear others opinions
in order to better themselve as a person.and there is one kind
who listens to self rather than anyone else.
for good or for worse.
we all have a way to look at life and ourselves.
even at the cost losing out everything we prize.
sometimes we will not compromise on what we put our faith in.
thats what being human is all bout innit?thats wht tht makes us different form other species.
to be able to think....
i have an opinion too...
no matter how it sucks
no matter how anarchy is causes in my life or anyone elses.
its my own little baby.
i am right in the middle of my quarter life crisis.
i am not sure wht i want to do. or what i dont.
i wish if everything could come east.
the money the girls.even the academics which i left far behind me.
i means if we all had it easy.
we wouldnt have made fuss bout all of us being einsteins in the making..would we?
again few wise ones will have the sense of anarchy and beg to differ.
i totally understand tht....
like is said. we can think we got this grey matter tht makes us think.
no matter wht the degree of intelligence.we are still intelligent.everyone of us....i always wanted to do something different.something others havent donw or very few have done.
i couldnt manage to do a single thing yet of any kind.except spooil myself like a spoilt brat.which is really hardly an achievement....i try to be serious bout life. i will sit over a smoke or a drink and ponder over life. but i end up laughing at myself.and i forget everything i every thought of.i will look around for immediate gratification.and never bother bout long term matters.
some say live it like theres no tomorrow. some say live life thinking bout the long run.
i really dont know how many more years iw ill be living this life.i could live another fifty years
and tkae my last breath in next few hours....but matyb eif i live a long life i gotta think long term..
this is a HARD LIFE TO LIVE. to make decisions and u never know if it will ever mean anything to you.or to live a life u planned well and good.everything in the hope tht it will happen.
hoping for the best and preparing for the worst....
we take a deep breath and take the plunge...
in hope
in faith
i only hope i get the strength someday to do so too....
for hope
for faith....

day 1

my first blog to this site.i been wanting to create a blogsite for quite sometime now.

but something somehow has been delaying my plans to do so.

so here it is now.i dont this is quite really exciting. that is to read such a drab blog as mine. i dont really have much experience in relates to this matter.however i do write a bit.but mayb ei havent learnt how to capture readers interest yet.well my endavour from now on will be capture the readers interest.

the names julius.all myl ife i been called the scissor rather then the CEASAR.well i am used to it now.its been quiter an uninteresting life i led till now.the only hope in life that i had was to make it a little more exciting than it is right now...my effort towards sarcasm hardly serves...but whtever...study sucks though i had been topper since my childhood. i never liked studies..as i grew older.i began to exhibit my hatred for studie is a more obvious manners.i began to flunk m y exams.my dad would blow his lid off.that led to me running away from my home for one whole day.....well i think tht as an introduction was quite really boring....oh well whtever...theres always a next time....